I don’t have the energy to text/call/update so this is for our friends.
And for the rest, sorry I usually don’t make stuff public, :( sorry.
Carrie is back in the hospital again.
Her Chemo was going good (as good as Chemo does) , and now it has spiraled out of control. bad fever, bad nausea, sleeping all the time and looking like … very bad.
I’ve done the best I could through all this till they told her tonight she wasn’t going home for a while and hugged me and said (you smell like home).. fuck… home isn’t home without her.
I don’t want a home without her…
I cried so hard through the hospital trying to get out, in my car trying to drive, and here now. I’m just at the end, Everything feels sour.
She is my everything, and nothing is making her better.
Well, her fever is higher, (higher than when she went into the hospital, after all the antibiotics and tests, it just keeps going up), so she is still not taking calls, I’ll answer a few/ already have , It’s the same hospital she’s been in before. I hate updating like this and I’m also sorry to my regular followers who just want to see pretty pictures.
It will probably be a bit before any more updates here, for the rest of you I will text more tomorrow if I can.